Kaiyah's Fault ;)

Warning: My raw experience and feelings follow!

This may be early to announce in some of your judgments but I don't care. You should know by now that I can't keep my mouth shut when there's something juicy to say. I'm pregnant with baby number 3! Some of you know that my plan was to try for one month and only one month. Why? Well with Kaiyah's begging came a nagging feeling of maybe I should be having our last baby now. Maybe Kaiyah already knew something I wasn't ready to accept. My plan was to wait 3 more years from now to have another baby but the nagging feeling wouldn't go away. Thus the one month plan came into action. Basically, I said ok, one month and only one month and if it's meant to be then so be it, otherwise we were waiting a few years.

Now let me clarify the word "try." With Laney we "tried" to get pregnant, night and day, around the clock during prime days of the month, serious, active "trying." Not with this one. There wasn't much "trying" just more of "not protecting." How did this happen? We didn't even have sex during prime baby making days! (Perhaps too much information for some of you). I was almost positive that I wouldn't get pregnant and I could move on without the nagging feeling anymore.

Also it's ironic b/c I took a pregnancy test 5 days before I expected my period, negative results. I was actually sad for the rest of the day, that's the ironic part. Then 3 days later I took another test and the results were one dark pink line and a very slight, barely can see, second pink line (2 pink lines=prego). At this point I was getting nervous and began thinking, no way, I do NOT want to be pregnant! So the next day I take another test and once again 1 pink line and a very slight second pink line. My reaction, extremely nervous but thinking it's a negative result. Then Sunday evening I take my last test and low and behold 2 DARK PINK LINES!! "Oh S**T," were the first words out of my mouth! I could not believe it. Even now, every morning I wake up and I run to the bathroom to see if my period has come.
So this is day 7 of being pregnant and knowing it. Part of me thinks if I miscarry it will be completely ok (thus me announcing it SO early). At least this confirms to me that there is at least one more baby up there waiting. But then and this is another ironic part, a couple days after I found out that I was pregnant I had some slight cramping and when I did I got super nervous that I might miscarry and I got REALLY sad. It's like I want the opposite of whatever the scenario. The timing of this baby isn't the best but that's ok. For today, I am thrilled to be pregnant. Now if it's not a baby boy, Kaiyah will be devastated that she didn't get her baby brother and then we will have a major problem on our hands.